It’s a whole new life.
With a different environment; a different faces. I found myself in the midst of something foreign and yet I am the one being treated as a foreigner. The initial and overwhelming culture shock has diminished but it still lingers and would be part of me for the duration of my journey in this distinct world.

I was blessed to be able to achieve one of my life’s goals -for me to have the opportunity to improve myself in preparation of the future that lies ahead which is almost knocking at my life’s doorstep. I have decided that I need to make something of myself and be a man of value. By going away, I take with me the optimistic perspective that this decision would allow me to make myself as a better person. A better individual who would be able to learn something about himself when faced with adversity, a man who can appreciate the seemingly insignificant little something in his daily life and a being who would find his yearning of divine affection by re-establishing his ties with someone who’s been the only constant soul in this ever-changing world.

‘It’ll be a tough one’ I said to myself, thus, my utmost respect for those who’ve been there before me. But I never imagined this could be tougher than I thought. It breaks my heart to see the familiar happy faces and hear those comforting voices –only, but within the confines of my mobile phone. Those common routines and minute details of my daily life that I never paid attention to are exactly the ones I missed so badly. So, I promised myself I would never take anything in my simple life lightly. And that I would appreciate and be grateful for everything that would pass my way -from hereon.

It’s only been a couple of months and here I am pondering the learning and realizations I have already made. My pillows has dried from the numerous nights I cried myself to sleep during the first weeks, however, my wish of being home again that dwells abundantly in my being would never face drought. I’m stronger now to be able to withstand the excruciating sense of being alone, and with a sincere prayer and thoughts of how hopeful is the future that awaits me I believe that I could pass this through victoriously.

It’s a whole new life.
Or so I thought. It is just instead a new chapter that I have to live by. It is a choice that I have made not solely for myself but in consideration of what tomorrow’s offering me. My story hasn’t been of significance for the longest of time, but, I have within my grasp the ability to make something of it so I will take charge and steer my own ship towards relevance. After all these are done I know I’ll be a better man. God’s willing!


almer_p
10-30-09
11:59pm

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